this is random but....
cg azmi's cheorography for beztariz was superb. he really is a genius. tho i dont fancy him tt much..wahha..ppl wld know why.
was thinkin how some ppl have so much talent.
or am i just born with 2 left feet?its not tt i didnt try.... he said i just tried too hard. what a bummer.

am glad tt leanne won! woohoo! though i much preferred kenli's collection since im a sucker for bright colours n vintage wear. but leanne wld certainly make a better candidate. she is the most normal winner ever.i mean if you wan2 compare to arrogant chris frm last season who won with his all black-gothic themed collection. hur hur.

am switching to wordpress but i cant find tt feature...hmmm...need to ask yas

i love my new curtains...

finally managed to meet them wah. stil shocked at yas's vocal prowess n wd's gyrating moves.blom pernah nampak wd joget g2. im as usual kaku mcm tiang.hah.

ketawer sampai nak pecah perot. heh. n lps ni mesti byk bertaubat....heh.. nyanyi cindai tgh maghrib..haiz..nasib baik sei nus announce "maghrib mak ckp kener diam"

ok thx for e paris hilton wallet. mmg gelojoh dpt present cuz tts e only present i received this yr. yes believe it or not. thank u again!

n my family love e cake la. meb im too cerewet for sayin tt e cake is dry.

e wallet!









n now for e mrepek nak mampos gbr. for which i wld say yasmin is e star of the show.



notice that they are in different wall clrs? mcm style g2.



wd tukang censor nus

ok so aft 4 hrs of ktv-ing...we were dead tired... n these r my collection of "my face kena cut" photos.





wah ok haven uploaded these many photos huh?

ok im lookin forward to be terminated frm work. faster come ah.

it seems like im getting e hang of e kind of "luck" im getting these days. in a way it is good. i seriously cannot tolerate standing for hours. n e ppl there is very chinky.. bah. sorry mimi. u recommended e wrong person. haven told her yet. heh.

im looking forward for road trip to shah alam with fit n e all girls camp?

in other words, spendin w/o putting anything back in.

what luck.

i think the decision i made to work at a sales dept is rather immature n stupid. yeah. stupid. i know i hate retail job but what am i doing? desperate yes, but not hopeless. opted for part time since i know i dont have e energy to stand all day, what with my grouchy face. bah. smile wani smile!

if u know me, u know tt i dont smile n i dun look approachable. so i dunno what i've got myself into.

i kept making mistakes n gg over e line. i've alrdy felt a pinch of retributions(tt i deserved) when i sat for the exams. im just wondering how much worse can it get.

was watchin Ellen backlot bash n i really hope No doubt make a comeback n produce a reunion album or something.

once when i was 11, i thought Gwen was a trans. tsk tsk. its her arm la.

i cant stay at hm e whole day doin nothin when mak n abah r workin their asses off.

n today i realise tt Nabi n rasul are not e same.

n ppl, dun buy nokia E63. its hugely lousy. 1st, i had to send it to the nokia centre cuz e hp cannot be switched on.2nd, i had to make a trip to tt place agn cuz e charger is not working.

ok gd luck to me tmr!

to think tt she is frm Sarawak.

it is time.been waiting long? haha

ok this year's e worst. i think im gg to have to repeat POA & ME. n dun tell me all this crap tt "miracles wld happen, who knows ur luck" bla bla bla. usually my predictions are accurate. i mean u know the feeling tt ure gonna fail e ppr tt u sat for.so im takin tt im gg to fail these 2. tt means i CANNOT graduate nx yr.cuz if i want to graduate nx yr, it means taking 2 repeat mods & 4 new mods. no 1 is crazy enough to do this.its a suicidal attempt. so i have to split these 6 mods into 2 yrs. tt means i'll be taking 3 mods each yr. its not like i can depend on tests or assignments for my overall grade cuz they are not counted. confusing? UOL students wld get this.

the point is, i'll be taking 4 yrs instead of 3 yrs to complete this course. argh. the word "repeat,retain" is so synonymous with me. wad a looooooooseeeeeer...

so u see even tho im enjoyin freedom,at e back of my mind these thoughts are haunting me, slicing every bit of my sanity.

money money. n parents. what can i say to them?

i cried after poa. cuz i mugged so hard for it. but on e day of e ppr, i panicked & kaboom! everything went blank. it was e 1st ppr so it set e mood for e other pprs. e ppr was definitely easier than last yr but i blew it up. really.. n looking back at all e study sessions at eHUB mc cafe...me frantically calling Su to clarify my doubts...doing all e past yr pprs...they are just wasted like tt.

ME was e 2nd ppr n it was hard. tough. e calculation qns in section b were tough. so i did one essay qns... i hoped tt will save me buttt i dont think so.

this yr was really emotional n i put in alot of effort. but it just wasnt enough.

i really dont want Sept to come. thats when we get our results. ya i know its very late. i've made up my mind. i have to find a permanent part time job. since im gg to do 3 mods each yr, i can work while schooling. n i need $ for e extra yr im doing.

this post is gg nowhere. i wake up every day thinking i have never really made my parents proud.

well this is real n there's no turning back. i've discussed with abah n mak n they agreed to sell e car. yes. they r gg to great length for this.

tell me how to face them?

perhaps im exagerrating. cuz i know there r others who r in a worse situation than me.
the thing is, i cant give in. "fighting wani!"

n p.s. sometimes i get a scare waking up every morning having to look at my monstrous reflection.

what am i doing?