Read & Weep

this week is a depressing week.Having failed my TP and getting a grade C for maths 1 test when others got As n Bs isnt a good sign.did my accounts ydy.spent abt $1300++ for driving!
good weather,lenient tester,easy route also cannot pass.i was lucky cuz Mak was praying for me in the mosque frm zuhur to asar on the day of the test.i was lucky cuz God help me.but i still fail.naturally,i'm born a failure,right?retest in jan.better pass.i'm having a headache cuz of personal financial problems.tuition wont start until next year.how to earn $?

i dont know what i've gotten myself into.feel like i'm dead.rarely talk at home.always stay in my room xcept wen i nd to eat or do hswerk.even rarely watch tv.minimal contact with family.feel like i dont belong.

luckily raya with the girls ydy made me feel a bit better.cruising with nada was err..well,fast n furious.betol tak,nusrah n yasmin? haha.

now tt driving n tution has stopped temporarily,i have no xcuse not to studee.finally,i can breathe.
Pain.Loss.Blood.Dementia.Destruction.

jeng jeng jeng

here r photos i took with cybershot phone.not bad.my photography skills are improving.plus,it's hard to capture happy moments of my 18mths++ old niece who's so hyper n carefree I fear one day she'll disappear into thin air.camwhoring with cousins are therapeutic.zero cost.full satisfaction.

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aww! uncle&niece.faizin looks "ke" haha!

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We don't look alike yeah? so sad.

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me&my 19yr old cousin with her 3mthsplus daughter.

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jadi minah jb bwk scooter plak.hahaha!

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n I love my new granny-vintage Anna Sui sling bag.$18 only.neat huh?

worried abt studies.havent really studied.meenachi said my class did very badly for e test. haiz.

wonder how i'll fare for math n soci test.3more weeks-Econs test! argh!

it's great to write stuff that is unique to only me and not to others.sorry if any of these dont make sense to you readers.

6 more days.Insyaallah.I believe in myself.

Selamat hari raya!

Like all muslim bloggers,I would like to wish all a very Happy Hari Raya!

Semoga ibadah puasa yg kite jalankan diterima Allah s.w.t. dan sesungguhnya kite bersungguh-sungguh dan ikhlas menjalankan ibadah puasa,tuhan akan memberkati diri kite dan keluarga kite. Insyaallah.

Wani ingin memohon maaf sikirenye Wani terkasar bahasa dan harap kite dpt meraikan Aidilfitri ini dgn penuh kemeriahan.

Selamat Hari Raya minal aidiwal Faizin :)

In the meantime,enjoy this..wakakkak..Nada berani ke drive mlm sorang2?wakakaka



Mother pontianak to daughter"itulah kau sape suruh tak pakai tali pinggang?kan dah klr frame hahahh."

old bird

wow!havent updated for quite some time.busy with stuff.nothing to update also :(

anw,was out since 730 today..had driving..then sch...then broke fast with yas n war @ Popeyes! yeay!haha giler.

was telling war n yas tt i i have this propensity to curse n swear n say the F word.they were like huh?haha..dont be surprised gals..ever since i work at that bloody CPF tamp service centre, i've never felt ashamed of being vulgar.ok shit this sounds bad.for this, i would like to blame my colleagues n all the MALA'ON customers.bagos la wani suker salah kan orang.Mak ckp klw hidup memang suker salahkan org,salah dier pon taknak mengaku.betol tu mak!wani sokong! heh

told them abt my "sad story"heh.dewi kayangan huh?haiz ntahlah eh..i wont say i have the guts or e courage...its just that when i want something badly or if i like something so much,i wld go against all odds to get it.sometimes,i'm surprised at the things i can do,even under extreme pressure.i'm never a courageous person.in fact,i'm the observer type,not much of a participator.
oh well,matters of the heart aren't impt.as for now la.cuz i have other things to worry abt.haiz.

realise how OLD i am.in 3 yrs time,when i get my degree(insyaallah dgn izin tuhan),i wld work then what?get married?no...i dont want tt to happen soo early..i wanna enjoy life 1st.then what?klw tak kahwin sape nak jage biler hari tua nanti?might as well book a place in old folks' home.

ok i'm rambling.this yr raya really no mood.sebelah mak byk tempuh dugaan.kesian Mashitah n Azman n Aunty Zizah.bersabarlah sesungguhnya tuhan ingin menguji keimananMu. n this is e 2nd raya w/o arwah Tok Mi.dreamt ydy that all of us went to the cemetery.biler terkenangkan mase arwah tgh nazak,rase pilu dan sedih.haiz.insaf la wani.

baju raye dah 4 tahun tak buat.not tt i wana brag abt being thrifty or what la.the reason is tt at this current moment,i counted e number of bj kurung i hv..n i have abt 20-most of them are hand-me-downs tt r still brand new..so y membazirkan?lg pon bj kurung bukan murah.
n i'm so freakin pissed-mak tak kasi buat kuih lg..sometimes i dunno wad my mother is thinkin.
terpakse buat dkt rumah org lain :( sorry radiah!

this is a pretty long entry.ok dah.
shall dream abt killing all those apeks who honk-ed me today.