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hols at last

hols at last

currently listening to i aint got you by alicia keys..

Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

woohoo..i duno y i'm feeling THIS rite now..but i guess it's because tmr no sch! woohoo..but then again..counting on the possibilities.. i have to start mugging again tmr..but nvm..tts tmr..now i have to enjoy every minute of freedom..while i can.yeah baby...tts the way!
what am i trying to imply? i dunno but i guess i'm getting nutty now..tts a good sign coz it means tt i'm ok..yeepie..stop it wani!

ok..anyway..updates..

i lost my chem tb on tue $50 leh..i placed it on top of my bag outside the library..so foolish of me rite? so yar..when i came out..it's gone! i was so distraught..wen i got home..lagi kene marah seh..abah said: tulah..careless sangat..dah besar tak tau jage barang sendiri.den he lectured me for like 30 mins.i had to sit at de sofa n listen to him.halfway thru de lecture...i got lost in my own thoughts..hu wont seh? i told abah hoping tt i'l get emotional support ke per..but then instead..i was condemned...haiz.. den he gv me $50 to buy another bk.of coz i didnt ar..de man wont be coming back to MJ to sell de bks rite? har.. so i used it to pay locker n my debts to aisyah.(i borrowed $20 to pay for de chem bk..n now it's gone!)so on wed..after guitar..i went to report the case of the missing chem tb..bah...up till now,abah doesnt know tt i used his money to pay for de locker n stuff...sheesh..

being the wani..de vulnerable and naive..n gullible..i didnt go for tarian on wed as well as tode! hahah..sampai biler nak lari dr kenyataan wani? tt qn wld remain unanswered.but i doubt cikgu will be chasing aft me for wat i did.i didnt even approach her n tell her tt i'm quitting tarian..so irresponsible of me..n de reason? abah saya tak kasi..bah! wat a lame reason..ok i know my blog is so boring n uneventful coz i'm always complaining abt tarian n stuff..sowee peeps..but tts my life!

n yar...i sought consultation frm my dear yasmin..de verdict is..i only like de attention.period.eheheh.so yar...i'm rejuvenated to know tt. hehhe..i tink it takes time..but when the idea hits me..i'l smile to myslef..mcm org giler gitu..tersenge sorang2 mcm kerang busuk. hhahah. so i'm stil in a clueless state of mind abt this..as i hv said earlier...it takes time..it'l come naturally..hopefully :)

to add on,de chem test on wed was "a hell of my time!"i screwed up de bloody paper.i only manage to complete 4 or 5 qns..de rest..i juz tikam2..hahaah..i'm gonna fail seh..

n yar..speaking of chem...i juz remembered abt de prac on thurs..it happened like this..it was towards the end of lesson..like 4.30.. everybody was doing calculations.inc me.den i heard johanna saying the conc of na2co3 from titration A n B muz be DE SAME. i panicked. so at tt pt of time,aisyah saw my panicky face n came to me.i wasnt aware of tt! coz she was scrouching under my table.

so wen she muffled: wani! i jumped n looked down..i saw aisyah.
den she asked me weder i'm ok anot..did i manage to get de ans anot.
den i answered: "yar...r we supposed to get de same conc.."

i didnt get to finish my sentence when MS Ting screeched: wani! hu r u tokin to?

ahhaha...her face was bloody hell worried! she thought i'm some kind of a crazy student..hahha

by de time..de whole class had their eyes on me..cassandra said..: tts scary aisyah

Ms Ting scolded me when it wasnt my fault! den i shouted loudly for everybody to hear..coz they were laughing. i said: eh it's not my fault..i'm innocent..den evrybody laughed again

meanwhile, wen aisyah was walking back to her seat..Mehul commented..aisyah..u're a joker ar..ahhahah..

aisyah..aisyah..i find u really cute..thx for being such a concerned freind!i really app it. u lit up my life! but do it properly k?

wow..now it's 9.35..i took such a long time to write dis...isk isk..

gotta ciao now...

why women cry

Why Women Cry
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>
>Why are you crying, a young boy asked his Mom?
>
>"Because I'm a woman," she told him.
>
>"I don't understand," he said.
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>His Mom just hugged him and said,
>"And you never will, but that's O.K.".......
>
>Later the little boy asked his father,
>"Why does Mom seem to cry for no reason?".
>"All women cry for no reason," was all his Dad could say......
>
>The little boy grew up and became a man,
>still wondering why women cry.
>
>Finally he put in a call to God and when God got back to him, he asked "God, why do women cry so easily?"
>
>GOD answered......
>
>"When I made woman,
>I decided she had to be special.
>I made her shoulders
>strong enough to carry
>the weight of the world, yet,
>made her arms gentle enough to give comfort... !
>
>I g ave her the inner strength
>to endure childbirth
>and the rejection
>that many times will come
>even from her own children.
>
>I gave her a hardness
>that allows her
>to keep going and take care
>of her family and friends,
>even when everyone else gives up, through sickness and fatigue without
>complaining....
>
>I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all
>circumstances. Even when her child has hurt her badly....
>
>She has the very special power to make a child's boo-boo feel better and
>to quell a teenager's anxieties and fears....
>
>I gave her strength to care for her husband, despite faults
>and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart....
>
>I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but
>sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him
>unfalteringly....
>
>For all of this hard work,
>I also gave her a tear to shed.
>It is hers to use
>whenever needed and
>it is her only weakness....
>When you see her cry,
>tell her how much you love her, and all she does for everyone, and even though
>she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good.
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obviously i have nothing better to do..aniwe..stayed back in sch wif pei yi,cassandra n derick tode. 1st we asked ms ting several qns...den i did my math assgn..yar..towards de end of de "studying period.." (it was already like 8.00pm)we were talking about our class.. den i realised tt de malay pupils in my class (basically gals ar coz no malay guy in our class)are boring..and dead.. inc me! i mean...i tink aisyah is de only crazee malay classmate.de rest..sarah n yaya.they are like so matured n dead..geez..sowee guys but dis is wad i tink.frenz reali influence me a lot k...i tink i'm gonna b "dead" for de nex 1 n a half yrs...if i con't to be like them.i mean it's gd sometimes to be matured n upright..but most of de times,i need to be crazee guys! if not i'l be a walking zombie..ok..study is a thing. knowing wen to have fun n enjoy is another thing..so i guess..i'l still stick to being crazee...so i wont be dead..bsides tt, i need something to spice up my morbid life in MJ! *uwek*...at de same time..i have to study hard n play hard too! even nada said i'm not tt crazee animore...aper telah jadi? oh no..wani! help! i better get back to doing hw..

hehehe..naughty me..hv a lot of hw to do but stil got de chick to go online..wani..wani..aper dah jadi dgn kau...???

sucky day

sucky day

gema started at 2.30pm.ended at 4.45pm.wen wif nada n yas n akrab n farhan.it was supposed to be dis kind of double date for yas n nada.. so i felt shity..left out..so they were like trying to pair me up with akrab.it didnt work.reason being i only treat him as a fren.n he too. so yar.their plan backfired..*phew*but they made me sit beside him.so yar..i did..nothing happen though.hahaha.

i seriously regretted going for gema, (de fact tt i skip guitar juz for dis function).de ending was supposedly to be sad and sorrowful but it turned out de audience was laughing their way out.i didnt though coz i couldnt hear what the hell they were talking about.whats more..de sound system was terrible. half of de time i was actually straining my ears to listen to the conversation. what the heck!

aniwe..quite a lot of meridians went for gema..like irda..shabana..salwa..radiah..ifah..all de dance ppl lah.. plus hafiz..liza..n i saw izzati! plus kak yati...heheh..she said her year 2001 was much better den 2004. bah! precisely...

so after de whole thing ended..i wanted to meet murni n take a few pics wit her.but nada n yas were like unwilling.they didnt say it but their body language showed it.so..i relented n yar..we headed to de gate..to go out n have dinner.akrab didnt come along with us coz he went to eat with his friends...so yar.it ended just like tt.i'm fine with it. as always..chill wani...

technically,i didnt have dinner with de rest.me n farhan took 38 den mrt to changi airport while de rest went to LJS. we studied from 6 to 7.50pm.den we went home.thx farhan for accompanying me! u made my day! this is for u dude...i appreciate it.

so here i am ...back at home..i didnt even bathe..juz no mood...i juz kp thiniking about study.study.study. n tarian...abah wans me to quit coz it looks time consuming.indeed it is! but i badly wan to be in festari..howz? i'm havng a dilemma now.i already told my parents i WILL QUIT. no matter what

but i'm having doubts...but then again...under any circumstances oso..i still have to quit. yar..so i wld.it wld make no difference even if i quit
cuz i suck at tarian..geez...there goes another dream of mine to be in a dance comp. boohoo y are my parents always making choices for me?
dis is so unfair.i feel like crying..i'll break down in a matter of seconds..

gotta ciao peepz

weekend

weekend

ok.gotta fill in wad i did yday.told my parents i wanted to study outside.but it's de other way round.i went to watch hellboy instead. ok. I LIED TO MY PARENTS i felt so guilty.but lets get over n done with,shall we? initially,i plan to watch with nada n her gang but tak jadi..cuz nuzwan wanted to watch walkin tall. so i told nada no way am i going to watch de ROCK! yuck. dun wana waste money.so in de end,watch hellboy wif akrab n sarah at cs.4 - 6pm. went hm straight. *boring*

i tink tts all..

thigh

lepakz

yey..it's de weekend..tarian practice today ended at 8pm..i'm so tired...my thighs n calves are aching..throbbing with immense pain..
shall not elaborate on that coz it makes me feel more sian..haiz..aniwe..tarian was super fast..de instructor didnt spot me dis time but he taught us like as if we are pros..

*rolling my eyes*

which we are not..cikgu halimah will choose 12 out of 15 of us for de comp in June.i dun tink i'll be even selected coz i'm so bad at coordination..my steps went hay wire..ee...cikgu must have noticed that,even if i'm not selected,i still have to go for trainings coz i'll be de reserve..haiyah..might as well quit rite?lets jus wait for de selection results nex week

*crossing my fingers*

wen i got home juz now..i was reprimanded by abah n mak..it's apparent tt they dont like me to be in tarian,so rite now,i'm thinking of being an inactive mcs member right after de comp..so i can concentrate on my guitar! woowee..but i wan to be in tarian..aiyah..i'm still contemplating

i really got to get myself started in doing revision..15 may is an unlucky day for me coz i'll have math n geog test on tt day..shaiks!
i think i'm going to fail or get an F or wad...haiz..i have such low self esteem..i dunno i feel so down nowadays..if it's going to get into me..i think i need some help! ~

anyway,de J1s already know their PW grpings today except for my class..they deliberately left us out! har!i'm so damn scared..i have to motivate myself to study..if not, i'm going to be retained....ee...tt thought is giving me shimber- me-timbers.

oklah..ciao..my fingers..are strained...

::schoolz...::

::schoolz sux to de max...::

at de sch lib now...it's lunch until 1.25..well..i usually study during lunch or free periods but not today! cuz i'm so stressed out..argh! everyday it's de same routine all over agian..it's so mechanical.. sometimes..i even feel like transferring to poly but of course dis thought is absurd..my parents would be screaming at me if i were to inform that i would like to transfer to poly..

*sob*sob*

anyway..today's pe was the most relaxing one..coz we only did long jump..which was, to me, a waste of time! coz i didnt even enjoy it! de second trial run..i dirtied my track pants coz aft i landed on de pit...i fell forward! *bah* so for de third trial run..i didnt even try..i know...i'm so not sporty..well i used to be ah...
( not bragging..)in sec sch..like every pe lesson i'll be so enthu..geez...i'm reminiscing..

*sob*sob*

but now i'm a changed person..like i'm more reserved..i dunno y i'm like tt..meb coz of mjc..lk at wad mjc had made me into! *uwek* is it negative or postive? haiz..i dunno..still figuring..but wen i'm wif nada..yas.. n de rest..life is juz so fun! i'm wani again! heheheh..de wacky wani..

i cant believe i forgot tt there's AMI last nite..how could i? haiz..meb coz i'm too cocked up!

har!

gotta ciao now...mlay lesson later..2 periods seh! wif jeffrey! ugh!



discovery of de day

discovery of de day

Below are 7 DON'Ts after meal:

1. *Don't smoke -
Experiment from expert prove that smoking a cigarette after meal is
comparable to smoking 10 cigarette (chances of cancer higher)

2. *Don't eat fruit immediately -
Immediately eat fruit after meal will cause stomach to be bloated with air. Therefore take fruit 1-2 hr after meal or 1hr before meal.

3. *Don't drink tea -
This substance will cause the Protein content in the food we consume to be harden thus difficult to digest

4. *Don't loosen your belt -
Loosen belt after meal will easily caused the intestine to be twisted & block.

5. *Don't bath -
Bathing will cause the increase of blood flow to the hands, legs & body thus the amount of blood around the stomach will therefore decrease. This will weaken the digestive system in our stomach.

6. *Don't walk about -
People always say that after meal walk a hundred step will live till 99. In actual fact this is not true. Walking will cause the digestive system unable to absorb the nutrition from the food we intake.

7. *Don't sleep immediately -
The food we intake were unable to digest properly. Thus will lead to
gastric & infection in our intestine

Do take good care of yourself.

Period Pain ? Don't Take Panadol:

* Refrain from taking panadol

According to a genealogist, 8 out of 10 girls will have cyst, however we have control over it too. How? We must not let it grow bigger or into a blood cyst:

1) Refrain from taking panadol or ponstan painkiller to subside the
pain..... however there are many side effects too and when you are immune to the drugs it will not help whether you take the entire row of painkillers or not.

2) Pain endurance ~ The menstrual cramps do subside after a while. Well, lets say you can't endure the pain without any painkillers; this is the time to go see a genealogist (women have a higher threshold of pain than man).

3) Ways to counter menstrual cramps:
a) Refrain from taking icy drinks especially one week before your period);
b) Take a 1000mcg of Evening Primrose Oil every 2 days;
c) Regular Exercise. It really helps relieve menstrual cramps, 3 times per week (if you can);
d) Chinese medicine Pill (Pak Fong wan) - Have 1 pill a week before and after your Menstruation, it helps to regulate and replenished nutrients in your body. If you are vegetarian, you will not be able to take it.
e) Have plenty of vitamins A and D. Carrots, spinach, broccoli, fish,
papayas, etc...

You are what you eat so please do take care of your body ok.

Something to add on ... Ladies please drink lots of milk! or high calcium products especially if u intend to give birth), I'm not trying to
advertise for Milk Company but it can really prevent osteoporosis. It's not fatal but can cause lots of inconvenience to your life in future... So start drinking now....

Severe/slight abdominal pain: it's not something to be taken lightly.

Women should not treat "Endometriosis" (abdominal pain before / during their menses) lightly cause the side effects will come a few years later after marriage whereby the disease will develop into cysts (sac found in the body, containing liquid matter).

If the cyst got bigger, you'll have to undergo a surgery to remove it but if it's a blood cyst, things may get worse as your womb / pelvic / uterus/ fallopian tubes will be infected and create more problems. If the infection is not properly treated, serious problems like infertility may arise.

So, whenever you girls do experience period cramps, dun just pop a Panadol or Ponstan to relieve the pain instead go to a genealogist for a further diagnosis as you never know that you're suffering from one which may not at first seems like a serious problem.

*desperado*

*desperado*

erm...i finally have the time to actually sit down n gather my thoughts..so tt i can update my bloggie..

life's pretty tough right now..cuz i dun know how to do most of the questions in apgp n sigma tutorials *bah*

i'm desperate...i need somebody to teach me...esp math...i called up like everyone.. wan wei..lee hoon...to teach me math..but they are all busy.. cant be helped ar..they have their own problems..

aniwe..de tarian on thurs ended at 8pm..it was a disaster...i kene rabak seh...
cuz de instructor(male) said i cant dance..yas..nus..faz pun kene..i think..
n nada..lagi..she was labeled as de kasar one! geez...i was so demolarised..
ok..fine..i know i cant dance to traditional songs..i juz dun have de charisma..n de lembutness..*uwek* but tt doesnt mean he had to pin point at us rite? it's apparent tt he kept picking on 5 of us...isk isk...only us..
wad luck we had..but nvm..i'll prove him next week..

hehehe..at home sometimes i practised on my own,to familiarise myself to de steps n de timing..hehehe..so farnie..cant believe i'm actually doing this..nvm..
for the sake of de instructor...

i join guitar! woowee...

i think tts all for now..de first training tmr...so i better get ready...ciao

*lamed*

*LAMED*

okiez..i guess i'm too tired wif school that i cant be bothered with my blog. it has been 1 week since i last updated it..sigh..it's not that i have so many homework for the week(in fact, none! coz there were only lectures..no tutorials) but it's just that everytime i logged on to the net..(which i often did for the week) i only think of chatting with the msn peeps and looking for new songs to listen and download..plus playing online games..so that's it! i explained for my "blogger absence" happie??

okie..i have A LOT of catching up to do ..i feel like collapsing and never recover at all...i wish i could ...haiz..

here are the ccas that i signed up for:

air rifle
guitar
eldds
mcs(confirmed plus guarantee chop..my 2nd cca)
dance(i didnt go for the audi!)

ok..i'm totally pissed off with the dance thingy(partly it was my fault too.hehe)
the audi was on thurs..5.30..dance studio..(up till now..i dun even knoe where tt bloody place is)

so on wed,(the day of cca recruitement)Salwa said u can dance AS a group for de audi

so wad de hell...me,nada,yas,faz n nusrah dah smangat practise on wed at nada's hs..frm 6.30 to like 7.45pm.we cheorographed our own steps using the song crazy in love

den on thurs..at about 5.30++ yas (she was in sch..me n nada were outside.. kiter balik jap..nak solat) called nada n said we have to dance SOLO

de both of us dah terkeju beruk seh...of coz i dun dare to dance solo in front of de dance ppl ar..so malu..plus i dun have de courage( my fault..i knoe..i knoe)

so in the end..we went home..in despair..me cursing n swearing..they cheated us..even de rest of our grp members didnt wan to go for the audi..yar.. so tt's it..there goes my dream of being in the dance team

then the nex day, Friday..in de morning i found out tt actually can dance as a grp for de audi...then later.. have to follow de instructor solo ar..( u'll be judged on this..it determines weder u can join de dance team or not)

right after hearing that piece of news..i was sooooo pissed off..
i could easily have gone for de audi....n den follow de instructor..(it cant be that difficult rite?) geez..i feel so terrible

up till now..i dun know weder yas gv us the wrong info or wad...but nvm.. it 's all over...but one thing for sure..i wont listen to unconfirmed news anymore.. muz go up to the place myself n check it out..haiz..

now i dunno wad cca to take up..i'm so depressed..haiz..that explains y i have no mood to update dis blog..but now..i guess i'm feeling better coz meb there is a cca out there for me...a better one.

ciao...